The search for the forlorn ear buds ended the moment I slam the front door behind me. Stubborn as yours truly may be, even I don’t consider going back the third time.
When the rattling of the door blinds finally stops, I know this is it.
My favorite lime-green ear-buds are given up.
For Lent and For Ever.
I feel like somebody just placed the heel of their foot in the pit of my stomach.
With no one else around, I find God an easy target to pick on. I continue grumbling about how much I resent when a place of sacrifice is chosen for me. I remind Him that, Lent or not, I prefer sacrificing on my own terms rather than having my stuff randomly taken from me.
He is not responding to my ranting and raving.
I suspect He must have His ears plugged with perfectly fitting, annoying-noise-blocking lima-green iPod ear-buds. That used to be mine.
Still I am getting pretty exhausted with this one-sided conversation and begin wondering if, perhaps, I need to switch my playlist.
I start by telling myself that it could have been much worse.
What if God needed not only my lime-green ear-buds but the entire iPod – and everything in it – all the apps, all music, all photos which I still haven't backed up from two years ago! - the entire dang thing including the Lifeproof case?!!!
The thought sends shivers down my spine.
Indeed, it could have been much much worse!
Fully convinced by the imaginary scenario, I sigh a huge sigh of relief. When I exhale, I think that not only did I finally let go of the ill-fated ear-buds but also of that big fat grudge against God.
I can honestly say that I am genuinely thankful that God didn't need my iPod!
The great feeling last for the entire afternoon, until....