It was not completely unlike going
deep sea diving. You stand on the shore, or even on the edge of a boat, and
wait, and debate, and hesitate. And talk
and talk, all night long until the pale light washes the eastern horizon, and
shake your head ‘NO’ – as if you could stop the Sun from rising, and argue
about the surf and the water temperature, the sea life underneath and the topography
of the ocean floor, the tide and the Moon, but your feet remain dry as well as
the top of your head, and everything in between. You can talk as long as you want, but unless
you take a plunge, you really don’t know what you are talking about. You never experience - never know - the ocean.
Waking up that afternoon felt like
finally jumping off the boat, and diving in and getting back to the surface,
and splashing in the shallows of the unfathomable ocean of God
Aaaaah… THIS is what they’ve been talking about all along, I think,
savoring this strange universe I’d fallen into, on one hand, kicking and
screaming like a toddler ripped off the monkey bars of this world’s playground;
on the other, fully and without reservation, mainly because there was nothing
else left to hold onto anymore.
It’s Dorothy meets Alice meets Lucy right
outside the back of the Wardrobe leading into Narnia.
I have a vague inkling that this
might be just the first step in a lifetime of adventures ahead. But, I am too amazed by the reality of being personally known, and
loved, and accepted by Christ, and the possibility
of knowing Him and loving Him back to pay much attention to what lies
ahead. For right now, all I need to know
is that He is enough – much more than enough – and I can’t believe what a lucky
fool I am to have Him in my life.
It is a trustworthy statement, deserving full acceptance, that Christ
Jesus came into the world to save sinners, among whom I am foremost of all. Yet
for this reason I found mercy, so that in me as the foremost, Jesus Christ
might demonstrate His perfect patience as an example for those who would
believe in Him for eternal life. I Timothy 1:15,16
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